So as of recently I think I've been downgrading as an artist in every way possible. I haven't drawn as much as I used to, and I think it's safe to say that I'm getting worse. Don't get me wrong, I do think I'm a good artist at times.. but most of it as to go with me doubting myself. My most recent drawing that I've put on here..
I actually really liked it. And so I had the confidence to put it up on the web. A little bit after.. I guess I just got the feeling that my art is being ignored, along with myself. I just had many thoughts on it and I guess you can say I over thought the 'problem'. I just felt like everyone doesn't appreciate my art as much as myself. I mean, I really do appreciate all the small-large comments you guys post on my work. Makes me feel happy and gives me the idea to keep on going you know? But.. I dunno. Whenever I make something that gets ignored, which has happened alot recently, I just get the idea that either no one likes my stuff as much as they used to, or that they never did like my art and are finally showing it. I know I'm an idiot for thinking this.. but I just seriously tend to assume the worse possibilities. I know atleast a couple of you would be like,"Dude no! You're an amazing artist/person blah blah blah." -I get it. I know I'm not the worst artist out there, and I definitely know that I'm not the worst person ever. To be fair I think I deserve atleast a little bit of recognition on my work.. which is weird to say because it makes me sound selfish. For a good majority of my life I've been saying to myself that I don't deserve the stuff that I have. Friends and family would usually tell me that I do deserve what I have. I would just deny it, but as of recently, I've been actually thinking to myself that I do deserve more than what I have. I'm a good person. I'm a pretty good artist. Call me selfish but liking yourself is not a horrible thing. But, again as of recently, people have been calling me selfish for wanting more than what I have. As I stated before, I appreciated every single good piece of feedback that you all leave here on my work. It makes me feel like I'm actually worth something.
All I ask for more recognition.. that's it really. As selfish as that sounds, a good majority of us want that. It just apparently sounds selfish when you say it instead of holding back and never saying it.